Friday, August 24, 2007 @ 23:45
ii feel like ii am back to lonely life.
Siighs.
It seems like ii am back to the past.
Sometimes, ii just feel that ii look so cheerful on the outside but actually ii am feeling so sad and lonely.
Siighs.
ii dont know why ii am like that.
ii just feel sad and lonely.
Guess sometimes, somethings must still be kept hidden deep down in my heart.
It will be better afterall.
ii am so afraid that my feelings for yyou will fade after sometimes, cause ii dont have much time to chat to yyou and accompany yyou anymore.
ii like super siianx le.
Siighs, really.
What can ii do.?
My Classmates are all so envy of yyou and me.
Cause they say yyou treat me very good.
Due to what ii tell them.
ii admit yyou are like too good for me.
ii am starting to feel that, ii am not good for yyou at all.
ii like to throw temper and let yyou tolerate my nonsense whenever ii am moody.
Plus my childishness, like what yyou say yesterday.
ii never learn to grow up, quite true ii think.
ii feel so bad and guilty.
yyou know, BABY, ii feel like walking out of your life so that yyou can find a better gf.
ii know yyou will be angry if yyou see this.
But ii dont plan to let yyou see.
ii just wanna write out my thoughts as ii think that ii cant hold it in my heart too long.
ii might burst anytime.
Sorry, BABY.
ii think that ii really look fine on the outside but not till ii reached home and will be facing the 4 dark walls.
Haiix.
Due to lesser time for me to share things with yyou.
ii felt neglected but ii got no choice cause yyou in camp so ii cant request for yyou to be here 24/7.
Though not use but what to do.
Cause ii am like that due to ii dont know who ii can trust as in friends.
Siighs, for stef and tingx.
They are busy with their own love life so ii wont wanna bother them.
As for classmates.
ii am still not very close with them.
BABY, ii really need yyou alot.
ii am so lost and lonely without yyou by my side.
ii REALLY miiss yyou lots.
ii am So SORRY.
yyou are trying so hard to coax me but ii never try to smile just for yyou.
ii feel like a failure.
ii cant make yyou happy but keep making yyou worry for me.
ii am soo soo soo SORRY.
ii just think that the MORE ii wanna make yyou HAPPY, the MORE ii will make yyou WORRY and SAD.
Siighs.
What should ii do.?
ii feel so useless.
BABY, ii so sad and scared.
ii scared that yyou will dont want me.
Sobxs0bx. T.T
Got a bad news from yyou saying that ii have to wait for 3weeks then can see yyou.
Which is till ur P.O.P.
Siianx.
Then yyou so cute.
yyou say ii will be super sad cause ii will miss yyou alot de.
Heehee.
BABY so KE AI.!!!
Yepp, ii will MISS yyou lots.
But ii will WAIT.
Cause iiLOVEyyou.
Although, ii will be very sad.
But never mind bah.
BABY, ii hope yyou wont break your promise by leaving me kkaes.
ii really feel very insecure without yyou by my side.
Sobxs0bx.
Heehee.
MUACK<33.
Think the post is long enough le bah.
Haha.
Blehx.
iiLOVEBABY.
Never be REPLACED - TAN WEILIANG ALVIN.!!
