Monday, August 27, 2007 @ 22:48
Where are friends when yyou really need.
yyou found out that yyou have been left-out.
What will yyou feel.?
Siighs.
ii am so speechless.
ii guess there is something yyou people just dont know.
ii am not as strong as yyou all think so.
In fact ii am as fragile as a piece of glass.
But ii guess this thoughts never crossed any of your mind before bah.
ii am like someone who is there when yyou need.
But after using, yyou chuck it aside.
Pardon me for saying this.
But ii am being treated in this manner from what ii experienced.
Haix.
Guessed the more ii say is also no use anymore.
ii wont be able to trust anyone anymore except BABY.
To my 2 friends, ii know yyou will hate me for saying this.
Somehow, ii reflected that most of the times when ii needed someone to be there.
There are but busy with their own things.
Thus, ii wont even wanna bother yyou.
Come to think of that, ii am still wearing this fake mask.
ii can never ever take it off anymore.
ii can never be myself, right.?
Why am ii like ii can be there for everyone but none are there for me.
ii think ii will be blamed for saying all these.
yyou must be thinking, " ii am here for yyou, but yyou never approached. "
ii dont find yyou guys out when only my BF isnt around.
Maybe sometimes ii do but.
Not to the extend that my world revolves around my BF.
Funny siiax.
Why ii type so much when no one will ever get to know about it.
My worries and tears ii shed for aint worth anymore.
ii guess ii dont have anyone that can be called "TRUE FRIENDS".
ii am being left-out.
Feeling so depressed and lonely.
But nothing can be done.
End this life.?
But cant.
Cause ii still have my BABY.
ii wont try to do it too, unless it really worth.
Dont dare to think about it too.
Haha.
The more ii think, the more scars ii will get.
Why yyou all like to assume me.?
ii maybe just a tools but ii am not.
ii think even tools also have feelings.
But ii am given this feelings - ii am a cold-blooded one.
No feelings at all.
Whatever ii have done is NOTHING.
Nothing matters anymore.
ii rather be alone then feel left-out.
Takkaiires. Byes.
Sorry, BABY.
If this post make yyou worry and sad.
ii am not saying yyou.
Sorry.
